I'm currently drafting this post, please check back in a few hours

[Update]
I've just watched "You are the Apple of My Eye (那些年，我們一起追的女孩)". My heart and mind is just filled with incredible heartfelt emotions and thoughts. I think I will continue typing this post later in the day. It is 4:03am right now, and I should be sleeping (soon).

It was an amazing movie, and I loved every part of it. I initially just watched a few minutes of the movie but couldn't resist finishing it. Somehow, I feel like watching "That Girl in Pinafore" right now. I felt a certain resemblance in these two movies (This movie, in my opinion, is much much better than That Girl in Pinafore). I don't know why but I always get affected by movies/shows. Even as a guy, I do feel sad and sometimes even cry (Thanks to romance films). I remember there was once I was watching a movie with a few friends in Secondary school, it was after our 'O' levels and the teacher decided to project a movie for the entire class to watch. That movie was "听说" (Movie description: A young delivery man falls for a hearing-impaired woman. Together they decide to break down the barriers around them and pursue their dreams)

I can be strong in many things (maybe not so much), but when it comes to matters of the heart, I do break down... I'm not as heartless and as emotionless as you thought uh? I don't always express my feelings to people around me, and not because that I don't feel. It is because I haven't opened up myself to you, yet...

Meanwhile, I'm trying to get a physical copy of this movie for collection. Blu-ray maybe? :P

Merry Christmas! :) Feliz Navidad (Still one of my favorite Christmas carol)

I'm just so selfless... so so selfless. I guess that's me.
I was actually working on some snowing effects for my website. Seeing that it doesn't work on mobile. I've removed it completely. I might consider bringing it back later for the fun of it =D

As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

Goodnight! Signing off @ 22:27
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

Yesterday's post was actually done on my phone with the help of Google Docs app. I drafted the entire post using the app and then copied it over to Weebly's app for publishing. I guess it is the solution for the extremely buggy Weebly app. The formatting and the text were well preserved in that post and I'm glad.

I've just reread my last post and found a few typo mistakes here and there. I also realized something about myself. I won't post on my blog when I'm feeling undecided about what to post (with the exception of the drunk post). This post was supposed to be published yesterday, but I was too busy yesterday watching "Divergent" at night. This is me continuing the post today...

I had nights out yesterday from 6pm after my flag lowering duties till 2359. I saw that I had enough time to go home so I went home to eat and use my laptop for a few hours before going back to camp. It was boring. I actually started on the movie "Divergent" while I was booking out. Turns out it was quite an interesting movie. I just got notified today that I won't be booking out this weekend due to some admin matters, but will be compensated by off in lieu in the future. This week is supposed to be short, but well... Hais... Next week will be a week of freedom as I will be free for almost the entire week thanks to Christmas!

Just two days without texting you and hearing your voice feels so weird. Hope you are doing well by yourself these few days or you've found other ways to keep yourself occupied. Does my previous (and another previous) post affect you? I hope not...? I can't be "appropriately" with you, talking to you, texting with you, etc. But I will be here giving you all the support you need! Haha. But if you really really need me to be there for whatever reason, then just contact me ba. I hope I'm not dead by then... Or busy. But hey, you're always lucky!

Today, I watched Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles #TMNT. The movie was great too, but definitely not the Divergent's genre of movie... I actually wanted to watch The Lego Movie tonight, but I thought I should sleep early today. Will be sleeping in the office tonight...

Goodnight people! Signing off @ 20:58
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

I promise that I will definitely be posting a new post tomorrow. I wrote the post halfway and now I'm too tired to continue. I just watched the movie "Divergent" on my phone and it was incredible. If you haven't watched it yet, you might want to consider watching it...

Goodnight everyone
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

I'm so incredibly bored in the middle of the night that I decided to write a new blog post. Surprise surprise! Haha! Today was my first day as an official OOC cadet here in SCS. I was briefed on the details about my stay in another bunk in another company. What I was told is that I should be able to have nights out every Wednesday. Today I didn't do anything much other than helping in some COS duties and staying in bunk resting. I couldn't sleep today. I guess there's something bothering me today that made myself feel uneasy. Tomorrow is Wednesday and I should have nights out. I'm currently planning with my friends here about how to use the nights out properly tomorrow. I think it is even possible to just go back home and sleep then book back in early in the morning.

I was into some issues recently that made me unhappy. I was worried, for someone that I shouldn't be worried about. I was doing the job her boyfriend was supposed to do. Her ups and downs became my ups and downs. I lost myself in the process and started expecting things out of it. Well, it did kept me occupied for the past few weeks, which is a good thing I suppose. These past few weeks of talking and being with her, I also felt her change compared to who she was half a year back (and it's not a good change... at least in my opinion)

I started talking to a lot of people, as I felt that I was losing myself. She tells me that she needs me in her life and I was affected by her words. A girl, who was once part of my everyday life, again and again reappearing in my life for the past 6 months. She's strong on the outside but weak on the inside. She puts out a strong front in front of people. When she told me about her problems, I felt compelled to help her. Without realizing that helping her would get myself involved, I fell deep into it. I am always there for her when she needs me. Be it midnight, 3am, afternoon, evening, you name it, I'm always there. I think that also explains why she rely so much on me, even after a few months of communication breakdown between both of us. Even though I thought we made it clear enough 6 months ago that we will not be talking anymore, it didn't change the fact that I still care for her. My heart has a soft side for her, and I just couldn't leave her alone by herself... She's also incredibly lucky I should say, as most of the time when she contact me, I would be quite free. Not to mention I did give her the priority over my personal matters and errands, which may be the reason why I'm free (for her).

She's an avid reader of my blog so I'm sure she will read this post as well.

I tried to talk her into giving her boyfriend up. Not because it would give me the chance to get together with her or anything like that (I don't even want to get together with her anymore. I just want to see her smile, again) But for her own good. There are a few things that I told her and I wished she understood and acted accordingly.

First, life is short too short to waste it on someone who doesn't deserve you. Simply put, he doesn't care! So why must you care so much for someone who doesn't care? Make sense right? Time is precious!

Second, loved ones is more important than work related matters (at least for me). So what if I'm extremely successful in my work life but have lost my loved ones? Your boyfriend spent so much time focusing on his work and neglecting you and your feelings in the process. There's something called work and life balance. His priority is like 90% work and 10% you. Then why should you give him your 100%?

Third, people don't really change. Don't expect someone to change for you, not even your boyfriend. Why? Because everyone reverts to their original self eventually. Let's say he promised to call you every night. He might call everyday for a day, a week or a month. If he's not the type that thinks talking over the phone every night is important like you do, he will stop doing it eventually. What happened can happen again, and it's just the matter of time.. ('Frozen' movie reference, "Because people don't really change")

Forth, maintaining a long distance relationship isn't easy. The only means of communication you have left is just call (be it voice or video), text and that's it. If you can't even communicate with him using these few and scarce means of communication, you are basically screwed...

Fifth, someone who doesn't hold you back is just not the right one. He doesn't even try to hold you back when you suggested that you might leave him for good. He doesn't even need you in his life. Your existence doesn't even mean anything to him. Without you, it's a day. With you, it's still a day. I know I know, people always say if you truly love him or her, you should let him/her go. BUT SERIOUSLY?

Lastly, recognizing that he is not the one for you is actually good for you on the long term. Don't keep telling me that we might die tomorrow. If you think this way, why don't you spend every last bit of your money? Since you MIGHT die tomorrow? There's still a long long way to go, and letting go means giving yourself another chance to get together with someone better!

It's like midnight right now and my eyes are closing on me. I know we will definitely not be talking again for a long time (tell me if I'm wrong), so hopefully this post will serve you good for a long time.

I told her that I might even forget her name after another 6 months. To be honest, I cannot really forget her. I think what I meant by that is putting her at the back of my mind. I'm a person that the things I say doesn't really coincide with how I feel. You should know me well enough to know...

If you go back to my blog post right about 6 months ago, you would have been able to read about my tremendous feelings and emotions for her back then.

Goodnight everyone, and to you (sweet dreams too)

As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

I've actually typed out a full post but then for some reason. A bug in the app caused the post to not get saved and now I have to retype the entire post again. So irritating!

I will try to use my laptop to type out another post with the same contents (hopefully my memory serve me well).

I love Twitter and I always post my current thoughts and feelings there. Do follow me on Twitter!

As always, take care and I'll see you soon

There are so many things in my mind now that I do not have the time to type it all down. I will try to make 2 posts during the weekends regarding all the things that happened this past few weeks. I don't want to promise but I will try my best... I should be free this weekend to shop around for some new clothes and go out with parents (I haven't been going out with my parents ever since I sprained my ankle)

All the best to Lemuel for his field camp starting tomorrow! You can do it and I hope to see you in command school soon :D I get people coming to me everyday in camp asking me whether I'm alright. I don't really know why but they seem to know that I'm not happy. I really hope I can meet someone that I can talk to here in SCS (I still prefer my BMT buddy, and I'm sure if they had a best buddies award we will confirm get) I know I've been constantly on my phone recently and up till late at night. I'm glad that you guys actually noticed that I am not in my usual state of mind. 

We had nights out yesterday for the first time in SCS. Me and 7 other Vikings bro went to play a game of LAN at Safra Jurong. It definitely helped to relief the tremendous stress that I had previously. The double chocolate from Coffee Bean was nice too. I miss the civilian life that I used to have, but I'm sure this two years will pass like a breeze. 

This is my first time using the SAF issued tablet/laptop to write my blog. I think I will do that more often from now onwards. Black Friday was insane as I bought many apps that were on discount from the Google Play Store. 

I updated my previous blog post as it was made from my phone and having some formatting issues. Membership invites have also been sent out to people whom I know constantly read my blog
(I also revoked a few, and do understand that I'm just starting to try out the membership feature)

It is already 12.40am, I guess I will end it here
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

I think I promised before that I would not post anything here that is unrelated to my life. And the above pictures are all about my own feelings. Not anyone else's in case people shoot me for it...

I'm still awake at 0015 :/

As always, take care and I'll see you soon...