What am I doing?

I miss you so much... yet, I have no idea what to do to win you back

It feels so good yet so foreign, what was I doing? I'm confused...

Got Bloons TD 5 in our joint account. If you are reading this, go download it on your phone and try it out. It's a great game. I didn't use any of the remaining balance to purchase the game. Speaking of that account, I always thought that account would be something to hold us together forever. When we first started the account, we talked about how big of an app collection we would be able to garner together at one place. How we can use the account for our future, and both of us having constant contribution towards the account to aid sustainability. 

The account 'flourished' with both of our commitment towards it. We have many credits left unspent, still left intact in that account. Why the account isn't holding us together the way it should? We have slowly built so much things between us. Many of our possessions are alike. We use the same things. I trust you with my account as well. All these are not built within a day, it is continuous effort put in by us. You are the only person that I trust having access to my personal accounts.

You are just special to me, and it might be something you don't feel now at all. You take up a very unique place in my heart, a place where only you can be in, only you can fit in.

If you didn't look at things from the surface, you would have realized that I didn't change at all. I'm the same person that you said "I love you" to. I'm the same person you said you wanted to spend your entire life with me. 

I didn't change at all, but why did you?
Can we 'restart' our relationship? I really need another chance, just one chance...