The Wolverine heals physically, not emotionally

Hi everyone, it's has been long since I posted here. In fact, I've brought down my website a few times due to some technical issues with the coding. I managed to fix it, but I didn't post anything.

It is 0043 right now, just past midnight. I can't sleep so I'm typing this post as I slowly fall into my slumber.

I'm back as a cadet in the specialist cadet school. I met a lot of new friends, and I'm glad they welcomed me into their family with open arms. I initially thought I might be outcasted by them as I do not know them at all. I also met a few secondary school friends, poly friends, etc. It's just incredible to be back at SCS.

Throughout these few days, weeks and even months. I've thought through and I think I finally found out the reason for my 'behavior'. I will be working to correct and improve myself to become a better person. Meanwhile, I'm drowning myself in music to keep myself sane while I work my way out of it. The first three weeks of my life here at SCS will see myself having my weekends burned. Therefore, I only have like a day back at home every week to rest and to do my own things. I'm seeing to properly manage and plan my time during weekends so I won't waste my weekends. The good news is that I will have 6 days off day during the Chinese new year week. I will be going to field camp in Tekong on the 4th week. Time flies, it's already 7 months (or even a few years?)

Trust takes a long time to build, but just a moment to destroy. Many things happened, and it brought and forced myself to see who are my true friends. True friends that will stay by me in times of need. I'm fortunate to have a few of them in my life.

If you ask me what's going through my mind right now. I would say, the time has come. It is now your group, your clique, and my group, my clique. Two completely separate groups, walking towards opposite direction. It is not unexpected though, just didn't expect it to happen so early.

I'm a person who value consistency, I don't like to change often unless I'm forced to change. I can easily both sides of the story without much problem. I can see through your mood in one look. I can know whether you are feeling happy today or not, easily. Sadly, such skills only work with others. How I wish I understand myself better, knowing exactly what I want. How I wish I could be more persistent. How I wish I could persevere longer.

People come and go, and I have to accept it. Only the truest stay. Everyone is in your life for a reason. After they have served their purpose, they will disappear and leave.

I will keep those true to me close to my heart and try to 'extend' your expiry date with me. Goodnight!

As always, take care and I'll see you soon.