Welcome to my blog, where I log down all the memories I had with my most beloved girl in this world.
Yes, she left me. I'm single now. I created this blog to always remember that girl that changed my entire life.
I really loved her, I tried so many ways to win her back but it didn't work. I do not know how long I can continue loving her, but at least for now. I know that I love her a lot.
For me, I always thought that Love is forever, permanent, and something that will NEVER change. I neglected her and didn't give her the attention that she wants or desire.
To all, do not wait until your loved ones leave you before you start treasuring them. Start treasuring them right now before it is all too late. If I ever get another chance to be with her, I swear to myself that I will love her right. It is only when I lost her, I came to know how important she is to me. Even when I'm not around with her, she is always with me. Every time I do something, I can hear her behind me, cheering me on. When I lost her, I lost my determination, concentration in my life...
When I first got into a relationship with her, I was so confused and troubled. It was my first relationship after all. I did nothing yet she loved me so much, so so much. She told me that I do not need to change myself. I just need to be myself and she will love me for who I am.
As time goes by, I've started to like her and love her for who she is. She is an amazing girl in every way. I hope I realized that earlier. At that time, my parents did not want me to get into a relationship. Therefore, I was 'hiding' it from them. Even when we go out, I didn't even hold her hand. I regretted it so much.
We worked together in Pepper Lunch, that was my first part-time job. The memories that I have with her is wonderful and something I would never forget in my entire life. We get to see each other almost everyday! We took leave days together to go out on a date. Things was perfect at that time. Our love for each other was raging.
Soon, we got separated because of our Polytechnic life. I was posted to Singapore Polytechnic, while she was posted to Ngee Ann Polytechnic. It was all because of my sucky results, I didn't get to attend Ngee Ann Polytechnic. At that time, she even wanted to change school just because of me. Yes, all for me (Just imagine how much she loved me then)
This is my year two (Approaching year three next semester), and many things have happened in between. I started spending lesser and lesser time with her. I think she didn't understand how I love her, or over time she realized that she doesn't need me anymore. I thought that she would always find me to talk about her happenings in school, just things that happen in her life in general. But she didn't. I should have known that there was a problem
I rarely get to dream about her, but these few days, I realized I dreamed about her a lot. I still can remember it very clearly, but it was weird.
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She liked someone else. Many of my friends asked me to give up, I didn't. To be honest, I tried to give up. It was only then I realized how important she is to me. I saw my entire life with her. I saw my entire future with her. This is the first time in my life that I've regretted so much, so so much. I don't need to try many girls to find the perfect one. Think of it this way, there's no need to find others because she is the only one that I've had experienced 2.5 years of my life with. I don't want to try other girls to find out if they are better. Because she is the only one, she would always be the best one in my life.
I love her and I miss her...
I dreamed that I brought her to a clinic. I didn't know where I was then. I didn't accompany her into the clinic in that dream, it was out of my control. When she went out of the clinic, she looked at me and passed me something. Then, I woke up :((
Updated: 12 March 2021
Dazhong Primary School
Bukit View Secondary School
(Diploma in Computer Engineering)
University of Wollongong
(Bachelor of Computer Science - Digital System Security with Distinction)