Remember the times...

I am a type of person that always think of the past. Be it whether it is something that I've regretted, or things that I won't forget in my entire life. It's always on my mind... For things that I've regretted doing/not doing, it helps to remind myself to not commit the same mistake again in the future. For things that are unforgettable, it reminds me of what matter the most to me...  

Do you still remember the times when I first held your hand and you told me how much you loved it?
Do you still remember that night when I told you that I will give you the chance to be my girlfriend?
Do you still remember when I first kissed you and I still don't know how to do it right?
Do you still remember that you used to cry a lot?
Do you still remember that we used to share sweets?
Do you still remember when did we first hugged each other?

For me, it is all my first time. The first girl I've kissed is you. The first girl I've hugged is you. My first girlfriend is you. The first girl I've ever held hands with is you. 

But of course, there are bad things as well. The first girl I've ever hurt is you. The first girl I've neglected is you. The first girl I've made cry is you. 

That is when I realized that, 
Those things I've regretted the most and the things that are the most unforgettable to me are all related to you

Today, I found the 'green wooden giraffe' that you bought for me. I placed it with my keys. You should have another 'pink wooden giraffe' with you. 

Green giraffe is thinking where did his Pink giraffe go...

It has been over a month. Yet, I still don't have any idea what to do to win you back. You wouldn't want to meet me and I can still feel that you are extremely cold towards me. I think I should just do what I do best, which is to maintain this website and post regularly about my life or my everlasting love for you.

One day... I might just... win you back...