It takes two hands to clap...

I've thought through a few things about us after that day. I feel that there's a barrier blocking us as to what each of us can say to each other. You fear that you might offend me, or say the wrong things. I also fear that I might offend you, or saying the wrong things. No matter how hard I tried to bring back those feelings of how we were in the past, it doesn't work. That explains the title, it takes two hands to clap...

Just myself trying to make it work, sadly enough, doesn't work. I don't know whether you are giving me a chance or not. It had been more than a month since we last met and I certainly miss you a lot. I think too hard sometimes to come out with new topics for us to talk about and I get very tired. Images of you still flash pass me all the time. Every time when you message me, my heart would skip a beat. Even when I didn't contact you, understand that I'm still thinking of you all the time! You are always on my mind, even for the past few months when we were together and we didn't meet.

Got another new eBook in and decided to send it to you when I wake up. One last book then I will complete the entire collection of eBooks! I'm munching on an Apple right now while typing this (Thanks Dad!)

I think I dreamed of you yesterday night, but I cannot remember what was it :/
I really hope that we can have a chance to get back together. I was thinking, what if I didn't force you to tell me the truth about you losing feelings for me. Would it be better that way? Since you wouldn't feel so weird when you want to try to make things work again? If you didn't tell me the truth, that day, we might just be holding hands to USS and kissing each other during rides. 

Sorry for the 'missing post' yesterday night

Thanks for reading
As always, take care and I'll see you soon