I went back to camp yesterday morning after a long long week of break. It is 1am right now and I cannot sleep. I don't feel tired because I've been napping the entire afternoon. Played countless amount of games on my phone trying to distract myself to sleep. Counting sheeps doesn't work. I'm left alone in the middle of the night. With no one to accompany me, I texted my buddy. Luckily, he wasn't asleep yet. We chatted a bit before he went to sleep. Here I am typing this post, with completely no intention as to what to write.
Extreme boredom have been bothering me recently. Gone are the days when I almost always have someone to talk to. Considering that I'm in camp, there isn't much I can do too. All of my bunk mates are already asleep. Went downstairs to buy a bottle of ice lemon tea. I went through my secondary school MSN chat log. At that time, all my friends will always sign into MSN to chat whenever their computer is on. Now, there isn't any way for me to have a list of friends that are available to chat with.
I remember myself posting to Twitter a few years ago, telling my followers that I'm bored and have nothing to do. One of my friends replied to my tweet saying that I should really find something to do. I have no idea why but it affected me. It gave me a feeling that others can utilise their time much more efficiently than myself.
I miss studying. I miss going to school. At least studying kept me occupied most of the time for the past few years. I talk to a lot of my bunk mates but none of them actually felt close compared to BMT.
I feel alone... I feel that I have only myself to depend on... Hais, I should stop thinking too much and try to go to sleep. Goodnight people!
As always, take care and I'll see you soon.
Updated: 20 Aug 2021
Dazhong Primary School
Bukit View Secondary School
(Diploma in Computer Engineering)
University of Wollongong
(Bachelor of Computer Science - Digital System Security with Distinction)