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Steven Ching

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Headache...

5/5/2013

 
It is 3:57am right now and I'm awake typing this on my laptop...
I just reread the last message we exchanged. Basically, I sent you goodnight, and I never got any reply ever since. In fact, you didn't send me goodnight or good morning at all. 
I miss you and I know what I'm doing doesn't work... 
One day, I will do something to win you back. I have no idea what you are thinking. 
I really hope you would contact me on things that you needed my help, or even when you are feeling bored...
I realized that there is NOTHING that you depend me on. So you no longer need to contact me...

I MISS YOU SO MUCH :(
I was just rereading those messages you sent me during December 2012
The only moment I can see you is in my dreams, even for that short period of time... 
I really hope I dream of you everyday, even though I know I will be upset when I wake up. 
When I dream of you, everything feels so real. I felt like I'm really holding your hand, really hugging you...
Instead of dreaming of you, how I wish everything now is just a really bad dream that I've yet to wake up from...
Tears just start flowing, uncontrollably...
I love you...

I haven't been sleeping properly ever since you left me... and I think I'm slowly dying from head/heart ache...
I still remember that I stayed up at night waiting for you to message me after your plane trip from Singapore to US. I was worried because you told me you was scared. What I did was just using an online flight tracker to track your plane and staring at it. Hoping that your plane would reach earlier, so you don't have to stay on the plane for so long... I fell asleep in front of my computer. When I woke up, I was so worried. I blamed myself for falling asleep. Staying up at night waiting for you doesn't help you in anyway, but I still did.
I think I'm just pure stupid?

All these are the little things that I do silently without telling you. I just wanted the best for you. 

As for your present, it should be in your room somewhere. Just look around, you should be able to find it.
I hope you will like it.


Myself and "Giraffe" are both waiting for you to come back, when is "Piggie" coming back?
It is 5:03am and I think it's time for both myself and "Giraffe" to sleep. Goodnight... or Good Morning to some
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...

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    Updated: 20 Aug 2021

    Steven Ching

    Dazhong Primary School

    Bukit View Secondary School

    Singapore Polytechnic
    (Diploma in Computer Engineering)

    University of Wollongong
    (Bachelor of Computer Science - Digital System Security with Distinction)

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