Forever alone...

Today, I reorganized everything in my room to make it cleaner. Brought in the vacuum cleaner, vacuum cleaned my room. Especially at the sides/corners of the room. Sprayed FeBreeze and used fan to blow out that stinky smell (Sorry Ambi-Pur) It is about time I cleaned that mess.

I also brought out my old desktop speakers. It is the Altec Lansing VS2421. It's not anything special but does pump out some serious beats and I love it. Now I can enjoy my FLACs using my 2.1 speaker. When I'm out and about, I have my beyerdynamic MMX-101iE with me. 

I've been blasting quite a lot of music lately to make my mood better. I guess it is better than eating loads of food until I 'nearly' vomited that day. 

My current laptop to desktop setup

Laptop connected to:
G400 Optical Gaming Mouse

Gigabit LAN Internet

Laptop cooling fan

Altec Lansing VS2421

Diasonic LED Lamp
DL-95TH

Oh, Hi Giraffe ^_^
and Piggie Toy :D

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Today is also the day when I didn't talk to anyone at all. Completely no communication with anyone. I didn't talk more than a few sentences with my parents and my brother. When I was playing CS:GO with Jing Hao and Lemuel, I didn't chat much at all. I feel so alone, so bored and no one even care. I've also removed the Poll at the right sidebar for support. After so long, I don't think I need anymore support nor I think anyone can help me anymore. The only thing I need right now is company, someone who can be with me and talk to me. When I'm alone, I always get headache as I tend to think much more. Sometimes, I even need to force myself to sleep to make myself don't think. 

The feeling of being alone sucks and I hate it, but what can I do about it? Even if I'm out with friends, I don't have the mood to talk to them at all. Only you can make me feel better, only you can tell me everything is going to be okay and only you can save me from all the heartache...

I gave you a chance to love me a few years ago, why don't you give me a chance to love you as well? I told you not to read my blog too much if it affects you, and I have no idea whether you are still reading it or not. If you are, hopefully one day I'll post something that can make you change your mind about me. I really love you, and I hope that I'm different from all of your ex... I know that your ex (Don't want to mention any names here, I know I'm an ex as well) also did things to try to win your heart back when your heart came to someone else. I've learnt something. When I love someone, I won't be afraid to tell the entire world that I love you. That also explains this website, it is all public. I do not fear anyone reading it at all. This is also something that I wish is truly unique and no one has ever done it for you. 

Be it 1 year, 2 years or even 10 years. One day, when you read everything I've posted here again, you would definitely feel something that I have for you. If I still love you by that time, I have proven my love for you through the test of time. 

Thanks for reading
As always, take care and I'll see you soon...