Feeling sickly, thoughts | Off in lieu tomorrow...

These few days I'm constantly having those flu like symptoms... Very possibly due to my rhinitis. It became quite bad these days, even at work... Talking about work, I'm not working tomorrow due to an off in lieu for Saturday.

Another boring day for me again. Ugh. This is the reason why I miss studying so much. I cannot wait to go back to school. My current plan is to start with university no matter what this year. If I don't get into SIT (very likely), then I will just have to apply somewhere else.

This is the first time that I ever faced such a road block in life. Things for me have been going smoothly all the while till after my NS. I went to kindergarten just like other kids. Got into a primary school, then secondary school and lastly polytechnic. 

It was a last choice kind of thing. I got into SIT Computer Science & Game Design. Made the decision to reject the placing and go to work for a year and trying to apply to a university next year. 6 months in, nothing changed. Still the same, without any proper future plans. Really had enough of this life I'm living. I know it is because of my results that I'm not getting into university and the course of my choice.

(The whole holistic approach thing is a LIE or maybe I need a better portfolio? But how many students matriculating to universities actually have production/stable apps on the Play Store? How many student code as a hobby? How many students actually want a career in this industry? Many are there just for that piece of certificate. I want to be there because I really love technology and being a software engineer is my dream from young...) Sorry, enough of ranting...

​It is 2 hours past midnight right now and I cannot sleep, again. Just the thought on my future itself gives me nightmares at night. What should I do? I feel so lost. It is the same feeling that I had after I ORD. Really hope I get all my decisions and thoughts sorted out, soon.

Getting through NS wasn't easy, many things happened back then (both personal and NS). I'm sure there are many people out there who are in the same boat as me, feeling lost and not knowing what to do next... If I'm ever successful in the future, I hope to help those who are facing this problem to 'see the light of tomorrow'

Recently, I got in contact with my Secondary School MT teacher, Mrs Wu (Used to be Ms Wu :P)
I was looking back at my first few emails in my inbox and found that it was to her, my MT teacher. She was the best teacher any student could ever have. I also went with her and company to Foshan, Guangzhou once in Secondary School for school overseas exchange program. I thought that I might as well try my luck and drop her an email to see if she will reply to me, AND SHE DID!

She taught me Chinese for 3 years. Back then, we used to MSN a lot at night after school. We always talked about life and sometimes music interest/movie interest etc. 

She was in Singapore last week so I sent her my number and she called me one day at night. I was so emotional and my whole head was filled with thoughts and memories of the past. I really wasn't a good student. I didn't do very well for my Chinese. We also made her cry multiple times back then (even though I wasn't exactly part of it). 

Because of this, I also contacted my Secondary School best friend, Shawn. I had a very good time talking to him that day over the phone. Reminiscing the past and laughing at stupid things that we did back then. We apologized to her for our childishness in the past. Guess what she replied with?

千万不要这么说，这只是成长的经历！哈哈，那样的年纪如果有你们现在这样的想法，就太不现实了，不是吗？☺ 虽然华文未必很厉害，但是你们对老师的真诚友好善良，老师一直都有放在心上，也很感恩能够碰到你们这群孩子，过了七年，我们依然可以开心聊天，真的是老师和你们的缘分 ☺

Damn. After typing this myself, I'm feeling emotional again... :')

Okay, next...
I'm thinking to starting a start-up company together with a few of my friends (possibly while studying). I'm currently thinking of ideas for it. I know it is still very far from reality, but I doesn't hurt to think about it eh?

​Looking at the time right now and it is already 3.05am. I suppose I will end here. Will be back for any more updates on the decisions and thoughts that I have...

​Last thing, I love this wallpaper... or maybe I just love the 27inch curved monitor that I'm using... :) and I'm using a legitimate copy of Internet Download Manager (decided one day that I had enough of the nags)

A Silent Voice wallpaper

As always, take care and I will see you soon :)