For today, I'm going to talk about 5 things that you gave me that I took for granted all the while. Many things that you did for me, but I didn't really thought about treasuring it.
1) Waking me up every morning
You used to call me on my phone to wake me up every morning. Sometimes you overslept and didn't call me, I chided you. Despite how much you apologize to me, I thought that it was all your fault. I did not understand the amount of effort I have to put in to wake me up in the morning. I'm also a very heavy sleeper, it is extremely hard to wake me up. Nonetheless, you still tried so hard to wake me up everyday...
2) Giving me your 100% attention
Almost every time I message you and need your help, you will almost reply me instantly. You try your best to fulfill all my request. For example, I requested you to help me to answer the questions for the Rail Corridor assignment. You put in so much effort and completed those questions and sent it back to me. Sometimes when I 'go crazy', I even call you late at night (around 3am) and expect you to pick up your phone to talk to me. Most of the time, you really did pick up the phone and talked to me, despite being so freaking tired.
3) Putting me at number one priority
Everything you do, you will think of me first. Even if you didn't and something goes wrong, you will apologize to me. When I call you, you will ask all your siblings (even your parents) to leave you alone so that you can chat with me properly. When your house is noisy, you will move to a quieter area to chat with me because you know I dislike noisy environments.
4) Understanding how I feel
You try your best to understand how I feel, no matter how hard it is to read my mind. I still remember myself being 'emotionally unstable' knowing that I might fail my Engineering Mathematics exams. You tried to hard to make me calm down, even though it didn't work. I can see from your expressions that you are extremely worried yourself TOO, but still have to try to make me calm. Things like that is even harder when you are worried yourself, but you are persistent enough to making me calm down.
5) Your care and concern
There are many things that I do that aren't good for myself, be it health related, or anything related to me at all. I continue doing all the wrong things despite your continual persuasion in not doing so. I still expect you to encourage me and I tried to make you not worried. I guess I really didn't know what I was trying to do at that moment.
There are so many things that you did and I took them for granted. I cannot possibly list them all out here, but these are the things that I feel personally and kept them close to my heart.
It was never the case that I don't want you anymore, it is only that you don't want me anymore.
I love you, I REALLY do!
Updated: 31 March 2020
Dazhong Primary School
Bukit View Secondary School
(Diploma in Computer Engineering)
SIM-GE UOW DSS