Regrets...

I hate my life.
Why did I do so many things in my life that I would regret later on? Why didn't I already expect that I would regret what I've done so that I can make it right before it is all too late? Be it in academic, relationships, etc. I've had many regrets in them...

If I know you would have left me now, I would have...

Spent more quality time with you
Bring you out to places to have activities and have fun
Call you everyday to chat
Tell you "I Love You" every day
Wished you "Goodnight" before you sleep
Accompany you to your appointments
Helped you to carry heavy items from your childcare
Hugged you tightly and never let go
Bought you more gifts
Spend my Chinese New Year in SIngapore with you
Notice you more, know how you feel
Known that there's problem in you long ago
Loved you right so that you will not fall for any other guys
Eat dinner with you despite my tightest schedule
Waited at your school for you to be dismissed so that we can go out
(Would add more if I thought of more)...

If I knew that earlier, I would still be with you now.....

If I know my results would be this bad, I would have...

Studied harder for my 'O' levels
Studied harder for my Year 1 and Year 2 of my Poly life
Spend more time reading on academic stuffs
Put in more effort in projects
(Would add more if I thought of more)...

If I knew that earlier, I would have went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic, and will be able to spend more time with you......

"I need a time machine, I really DO"

As always, take care and I'll see you soon

Steven Ching

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