Today, I reorganized everything in my room to make it cleaner. Brought in the vacuum cleaner, vacuum cleaned my room. Especially at the sides/corners of the room. Sprayed FeBreeze and used fan to blow out that stinky smell (Sorry Ambi-Pur) It is about time I cleaned that mess. I also brought out my old desktop speakers. It is the Altec Lansing VS2421. It's not anything special but does pump out some serious beats and I love it. Now I can enjoy my FLACs using my 2.1 speaker. When I'm out and about, I have my beyerdynamic MMX-101iE with me. I've been blasting quite a lot of music lately to make my mood better. I guess it is better than eating loads of food until I 'nearly' vomited that day. My current laptop to desktop setup Laptop connected to: G400 Optical Gaming Mouse Gigabit LAN Internet Laptop cooling fan Altec Lansing VS2421 Diasonic LED Lamp DL-95TH Oh, Hi Giraffe ^_^ and Piggie Toy :D I play different type of songs according to my mood. Be it whether I'm sad, happy, heartbroken, or just when I want to remember the past. I will slowly filter out my list of songs to listen to. Many of the songs here just explains how I feel, have fun figuring out what they meant. HINT: Lyrics...
Have fun listening to these music that I've uploaded, I have unlimited bandwidth. So MUSIC ON! :D When you just left me... A Twist In My Story - Secondhand Serenade Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You Secondhand Serenade - Stay Close, Don't Go I hate my life.
Why did I do so many things in my life that I would regret later on? Why didn't I already expect that I would regret what I've done so that I can make it right before it is all too late? Be it in academic, relationships, etc. I've had many regrets in them... If I know you would have left me now, I would have...
If I knew that earlier, I would still be with you now..... It is 2:02am right now and I'm typing this blog post on my laptop with just my table lamp on, shining brightly on my keyboard. Today, I've met with Sharon for dinner and then later Hafidah as well. We didn't talk much about you at all. I've told Sharon everything she need to know, and I hope she would talk to you someday. Today is another boring day for me. I didn't chat much with you. Every time I chat with you, I really hope our friendship would progress on. I realized you've changed in your typing style. I don't know whether it is because you purposely treat me differently. You now use 'Yes' to substitute your 'Yep'/'Orh'/'En', etc. You also gave me many one word replies, that only shows that you don't bother at all. You used to use Emojis a lot to express your emotions and expression. Ever since we broke up, you rarely use them or not at all anymore. The only emoji you used were :/ , ;/ and :( for today... when in the past, you used :P the most (Yes, it was cute) I hope you have been enjoying the games that I've purchased. Namely Cafe Nipponica and Pocket League Story. Personally, I haven't started playing Cafe Nipponica but only played Pocket League Story. As usual, Kairosoft games were fun and addictive! I can spend hours playing them without feeling bored. I don't know many of the soccer rules and formations, making certain aspects of the game more challenging than usual "I wish I had a time machine, that I can use to go back in time to make everything right again" I've thought through a few things about us after that day. I feel that there's a barrier blocking us as to what each of us can say to each other. You fear that you might offend me, or say the wrong things. I also fear that I might offend you, or saying the wrong things. No matter how hard I tried to bring back those feelings of how we were in the past, it doesn't work. That explains the title, it takes two hands to clap...
Just myself trying to make it work, sadly enough, doesn't work. I don't know whether you are giving me a chance or not. It had been more than a month since we last met and I certainly miss you a lot. I think too hard sometimes to come out with new topics for us to talk about and I get very tired. Images of you still flash pass me all the time. Every time when you message me, my heart would skip a beat. Even when I didn't contact you, understand that I'm still thinking of you all the time! You are always on my mind, even for the past few months when we were together and we didn't meet. This Love section of my blog is starting to get cluttered
To fix this problem, I've added "Read more" link at entries that are very long to lessen the loading times and to enable a much better browsing experience Check back soon for blog entries at night or tomorrow morning Update: I'm too tired to post anything right now. It is 2:55am now! I can't sleep but I'm tired. I already had half of the post created but not completed As always, take care and I'll see you soon... Today, you finally started chatting with me! I really enjoyed your company. It was great. Thank you so much for spending time to guide me around Toontown. I really appreciated it. 9.50pm - 11.32pm ^_^
The weather nowadays is really HOT!, when i say HOT, i mean it! Google Now show an incredible 36 Celsius in the evening. Now it is 29 Celsius, still much warmer than any night time here. Can anyone request SMRT to turn up the air conditioning in their LRT and MRT? I really don't want to sweat all the way to school and all the way back home. It was really stuffy and I almost cannot breathe. With that plus headache = worse experience ever Today during my break time, you suddenly messaged me. I was quite surprised and thinking what could have happened? From that point onward, I started to have headache on the center part of my head. Soon, it moved to the right side (YES IT MOVES!) It is 1:13am at night and I cannot sleep! I always think too much, if only there was a switch to turn on/off my brain :D
I think the idea for the FYP is already confirmed. Now all I need to do is to make sure that the project is completed on time. I can feel that very soon I will have a lot of work to do. I will no longer be this free to blog everyday here. With my current emotions, I hope that I can concentrate on my final year modules. I need to score well in this year to at least secure my 3.0 cumulative GPA. My results were bad, and I'm trying very hard to make them better. I'm currently feeling emotionally hurt, and physically tired. |
Updated: 20 Aug 2021
Steven Ching
Dazhong Primary School Bukit View Secondary School Singapore Polytechnic (Diploma in Computer Engineering) University of Wollongong (Bachelor of Computer Science - Digital System Security with Distinction) Infantry Specialist (3SG NS) Archives
August 2021
|